Elizabeth Cady Stanton wrote, "Every truth we see is one to give to the world, not to keep to ourselves alone." I write my truth as I see it in the reality I create in my mind. There are times when I write the truth and it is the farthest thing from reality. Other times I have wanted to write the truth, but been too afraid to write anything. I just keep the feelings inside letting them keep me blocked from what I want and need to do, write.
When I write I create a civilization of fragile characters that feel and test their reality just like I do. I test my perceptions of the world as I see my life through the development of my character’s story. I push the mark of what is acceptable for my family and friends to read about me as I recreate myself in my characters and then I feel the angst of actually clicking publish.
As a writer I do not trust that those around me will accept my characters or accept what I have to say through them. For years I used the excuse I can't write because my family is still alive and what would my friends think. These were just excuses not to write.
What I was really afraid of was what if someone liked what I wrote, identified with how I felt. What would I do if my greatest dream came true and I became a successful publishable author? I used the fear of telling the truth about my life and feelings as an excuse to not write.
In this blog
I have begun creating a network of shared commitment with others who feel like I do about trying to write. Together we overcome the greatest obstacle any writer must face, themselves. In this short time I have been able to stop being afraid of what others think and be more concerned with what I think. To let go of the need and want of a muse is hard, but to learn how to inspire and motivate myself has been even harder.
Each day I write I express my commitment to myself. That is the action that I do for me. I have written a hundred books in my head, but to commit to writing in this blog is a real commitment with me and no one else, no muse. Finding my way as a writer is a process I must learn to willingly accept.
Every day I write in this blog I am developing a relationship with myself
and others. I am sharing my thoughts and feelings and emotions with people who either get me or don't. For the first time the don'ts don't matter. I get me and I know each day there is at least one other person reading who gets what I am feeling and understands what I am saying.
Facing the truth about me has taken more courage
than I ever knew I had. Each day I click publish I feel stronger than the day before. I’ve spent a lifetime trying to think myself into being a writer, but thinking is just one part of the three legged stool that I sit on to write. I must think, I must feel and I must do the action.
As writers we can have the most brilliant mind, but if we don't share our thoughts then no one knows we are brilliant. We may be the most sensitive person in the room repeatedly getting our feelings hurt by those who profess to love us, but if we don't share our hurt feelings then no one knows we are in pain. As writers we may sit at the laptop with it open, but if we don't type then we are not writing, we are not telling our truth…………………….
When I write I create a civilization of fragile characters that feel and test their reality just like I do. I test my perceptions of the world as I see my life through the development of my character’s story. I push the mark of what is acceptable for my family and friends to read about me as I recreate myself in my characters and then I feel the angst of actually clicking publish.
As a writer I do not trust that those around me will accept my characters or accept what I have to say through them. For years I used the excuse I can't write because my family is still alive and what would my friends think. These were just excuses not to write.
What I was really afraid of was what if someone liked what I wrote, identified with how I felt. What would I do if my greatest dream came true and I became a successful publishable author? I used the fear of telling the truth about my life and feelings as an excuse to not write.
In this blog
I have begun creating a network of shared commitment with others who feel like I do about trying to write. Together we overcome the greatest obstacle any writer must face, themselves. In this short time I have been able to stop being afraid of what others think and be more concerned with what I think. To let go of the need and want of a muse is hard, but to learn how to inspire and motivate myself has been even harder. Each day I write I express my commitment to myself. That is the action that I do for me. I have written a hundred books in my head, but to commit to writing in this blog is a real commitment with me and no one else, no muse. Finding my way as a writer is a process I must learn to willingly accept.
Every day I write in this blog I am developing a relationship with myself
and others. I am sharing my thoughts and feelings and emotions with people who either get me or don't. For the first time the don'ts don't matter. I get me and I know each day there is at least one other person reading who gets what I am feeling and understands what I am saying.Facing the truth about me has taken more courage
than I ever knew I had. Each day I click publish I feel stronger than the day before. I’ve spent a lifetime trying to think myself into being a writer, but thinking is just one part of the three legged stool that I sit on to write. I must think, I must feel and I must do the action.As writers we can have the most brilliant mind, but if we don't share our thoughts then no one knows we are brilliant. We may be the most sensitive person in the room repeatedly getting our feelings hurt by those who profess to love us, but if we don't share our hurt feelings then no one knows we are in pain. As writers we may sit at the laptop with it open, but if we don't type then we are not writing, we are not telling our truth…………………….
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